It's a new year

For the world, and for me.

I turned 28 yesterday. That was a surprisingly hard sentence to say. 28. Where has the time gone? I’ll tell you where - it’s been split in two unequal halves. One bit is me trying my hardest not to die by my hand. The other is trying my best to kill myself. So there has been next to no space for actual living.

Which is what I seek to change in this six-month unfucking my life experiment.

“The proper work of the mind is the exercise of choice, refusal, yearning, repulsion, preparation, purpose, and assent. What then can pollute and clog the mind’s proper functioning? Nothing but its own corrupt decisions” - Epictetus

To better track progress, I downloaded a habit tracker. Lifetime access costs £7 but if you write to them, they’ll give you the app for free. Here’s the link to download on the iOS app store - Habit Tracker.

I have met 58% of my daily habit goals in the last week. Some I have forgotten to track. I haven’t worked out much this week. My biggest problem is sleeping late, missing my 5 am wake-up time and skipping exercise. Personal work is empty as well as I am also brain tired after employer work, and terrified to work towards my goals.

But remember the last post was about not following feelings. So this week, I try again. And after the next review, will decide if any changes need to be made.